Pregnancy and Motherhood

The realities of the second trimester: one person's account

The second trimester is billed as the best time of pregnancy for most women; the middle bit where pregnancy isn't brand-new to your body but also you aren't at the crazy heavy bit at the end. It's also a great time for those like me, who are first time mums, to really settle into pregnancy and start learning all these new things, from mat pay and kit days to breastfeeding and birth, without the pressure of it being immediately around the corner. 

Personally, this was also the trimester where I felt a clear shift between “I'm pregnant” and “we’re having a baby”; that this isn't a ‘me’ thing, but something much bigger. 

Read my first trimester blog here.

Symptoms and side effects 

I have had a relatively good pregnancy thus far. Don't get me wrong, this is the hardest thing my body has ever done, and I feel its difficulty, but with the right support and adjustments, I have managed it better than I thought I would. And in fact, despite some of the negative side effects that I'll go into below, I have had many positive effects too, related to my mental health, my skin, and my approach to setting boundaries.

For me, the second trimester meant waving goodbye to some side effects, like cramps and most nausea (though the latter still loved to pay me a flying visit now and again). It did however mean welcoming new ones: heartburn (uncomfortable but v manageable), rib and back pain (as baby got bigger from week 25/26) and crippling, nearly daily headaches for around 10 weeks. As someone who works on a laptop all day, this last one was really a tough one to navigate. I tried everything from cold flannels to blood tests to check my iron levels, and then one day, around week 22, they simply stopped. Thank goodness.

My constant companion through first and a lot of the second trimester was exhaustion; it was debilitating. For all those fancy press meals or social activities I put on my IG stories during this time, I wasn't showing the next day or two when I was completely bedbound. The only reason I was able to manage was because of the brilliant support of my fiance, as when I had to spend whole days in bed after a day in the office or attending a social or press event, he took on all the housework, cooking, and looking after me.

The exhaustion taught me a lot about staying firm in my boundaries; I did have some inner conflict with not wanting to look like I was being flaky with friends or not pulling my weight at work, but once I accepted that my body and mind simply does not operate in the same way as it did when I wasn't pregnant, and I remembered I was doing this for my baby, it was easier. Again, like the headaches, around week 23 was a turning point for this symptom. I was still tired, but like a regular tired, nowhere near the level it had been since like week 5 of my pregnancy.

6 months - Instagram vs reality (non alcoholic, FYI!)

“Sleep now before the baby is born”

As I, and many others, will tell you, this is the biggest fallacy of pregnancy. Despite the exhaustion, I don't think I've slept through the night more than twice since late September. First and foremost, the toilet runs in the middle of the night. I'd sometimes go once in the night pre-pregnancy, but my current record, while pregnant, is four times. Then as a stomach sleeper, I had to adapt to side sleeping - and from about week 22 when I was feeling the significant weight of the baby, I'd spend the night turning and turning like the meat in a kebab shop lol. Maybe it’s all in aid of an easier adjustment for a newborn…

Having had a pregnancy massage towards the end of the trimester (thank you to my own mum for booking it!), I’d definitely sleep better if I could have that every night, haha.

Scans and appointments

Now for all the cool bits! If you don't need to visit the Early Pregnancy Unit, your first NHS scan will be the 12-week scan. My 12-week scan was my first external scan of the pregnancy, but not my first scan overall, and it fell at 13 weeks instead. Baby played coy with us and the ultrasound technician: while they moved around and moved a lot - I watched in awe as my child stretched, showed us hand movements and even turned their whole body away from us - it took an hour for the technician to get the head to bum measurements she needed. I had to star jump, wiggle, turn on my side, go for a walk, and drink more fluids. It was incredible though; I was on cloud 9 for the rest of the day. 

I opted to pay privately for a scan between the NHS 12-week and 20-week scans, so I could find out my baby’s gender just before Christmas. My fiance and I found out the gender a week before Christmas Day, and despite me planning to reveal all to family and friends at Christmas in a low-key, but very ‘me’ way, we were both just too excited and told everyone via call, video call, or text within a few hours. It was a momentous day, and one I'll remember my whole life. And because all the old wives tales had me so convinced it was one gender, and instead it was the other, the surprise made it even sweeter.

The other routine NHS appointments in this trimester are your 16-week appt, a 20-week scan, a 25-week appt, and if you have some risk factors, a gestational diabetes check. 

The 16-week appointment is usually where you hear your baby’s heartbeat for the first time; I heard my baby's heartbeat for the first time a few days before this - though still within week 16 - as I had a hospital visit for a concerning symptom (they thoroughly checked me out, and all was fine). It was amazing - I could have listened all day. At the 25-week appt, my child’s heart beat was significantly stronger and easier to find, though the appointment itself was much the same as 16 weeks, apart from conversations about baby's movement patterns. Be sure to get your Mat B1 form at this appointment, as you must submit it to work 15 weeks before your due date (and word of warning, don't take your company’s information as gospel; while some things are up to them, others are UK-wide law that isn't always adhered to). 

I had my 20-week scan coming out of a horrendous flu - the most ill I’ve been in my adult life - and was told I could not move it by the hospital. However, as I'd had all that time ill in bed feeling baby move, I felt very calm about the anatomy scan and, as I'd suspected, everything looked normal! 

Throughout my pregnancy, Instagram served me a lot of reels about this gestational diabetes test. That sugary drink is no where near as vile as the countless reels will have you believe. Here in the UK, the drink you have to consume between blood tests simply tastes like a flat, watered down Fanta. You have one blood test before (having fasted overnight) and one two hours after drinking the drink.

movement

It is said that with your first baby, you should feel baby’s movements between 16 and 24 weeks. However, I'm not crazy when I say I felt something, especially on certain late afternoons and evenings, from as early as 13 weeks. It wasn’t painful and didn't feel like full on movement, but rather an odd sensation below or behind my belly button. After seeing how baby was so active at my 13-week scan, and then the established movement patterns I felt later on in the trimester which fit with these timings, I'm convinced it was them moving about. Around week 16/17, movement got significantly stronger, and by week 19/20, it was unmistakable, and I relished feeling them wriggle about.

From week 23, babies can hear and react to sounds outside the womb, and well, my child was subjected to my full shower concerts when washing my hair (curly girl routine, IYKYK) and I could clearly tell when I was getting kicks of approval… or silence. Tough crowd. We felt baby kick from the outside for the first time in week 24. I also often felt baby’s foot in my left rib around this time - something my mum said I used to do when she was having me.

If I'm completely honest with myself, it was around week 21 that I really felt I started to bond with my child; they were something wonderful before that I was caretaking in my abdomen and doing everything to protect, but I really started feeling a bond with them from this point onwards.

Cravings 

Close behind “do you know the gender”; one of the most frequently asked questions I've received is whether I have any weird cravings. My first craving was something I usually couldn't care less about: Haribos. But specifically sour Haribos. Oh, and I didn't want the sweet itself; I simply wanted to suck the sour sugar and discard the sweet. Soon after, red grapes dipped lightly in salt was a firm favourite of mine for a bit, weird I know. Both of these cravings were early on in the trimester; and I had no others for the rest of the time. 

Maternity clothes - what do you actually need?

For me, I was in that weird phase for a long while where none of my regular trousers or zip up skirts fit me, but maternity trousers just felt ill-fitting and not built for my body type (i.e. not for women with curves at the back too…). I was most comfortable in regular, non maternity wear that was loose and/or elasticated. My 2024/2025 winter wardrobe was essentially jumper dresses. I did have to get new bras at around six months and my God, ladies, get your bras fitted regularly!!! I couldn't believe the difference in comfort and support from my new, properly sized bras.

Also, to anyone reading this, I want you to know, especially with your first pregnancy, it is normal not to show for a while - just as it's normal to show from as early as 8 weeks too! Unless I was in a tight outfit, or lifted my top up, my bump barely showed day-to-day until I was 23/24 weeks pregnant (six months), and I didn't really know how to respond to “you don't even look pregnant” as I agreed. My two usual responses may have sounded a little defensive (“but the midwives say baby is measuring fine - even a little big” or “well, I feel it!”) but they were both true - and it was that or a weird silence, haha. 

Preparing for birth

I used this trimester to research a lot on birth: anyone who knows me knows I'm a planner. However, I know birth and motherhood is so unpredictable; I just want to avoid being a passive participant, instead having a basic understanding of what is going on with my body. Beware though, there is such a thing of having information overload, especially in the age of social media when everyone has an opinion. 

I read The Positive Birth Book by Milli Hill, which was such an empowering read, and really reframed my fear surrounding birth. It also gave me the knowledge to then ask questions of my midwife mum, or mum friends around me.

Many people recommended doing a hypnobirthing course; I did two - one free and an hour long, the other paid and more like 8 hours - and found the paid one far more helpful, and rooted far more in science. I also joined the associated Facebook group where real women shared real birth stories, which again, broke down years of media perceptions, and attended my local hospital trust’s online antenatal classes.

Read my top 5 things I’ve found super helpful during pregnancy thus far.

Other bits 

I often joke that I'm like the mum in 2003’s Freaky Friday, with reminders always going off on my phone. Well, that hasn't changed since I've become pregnant; I've just added two new ones: to do my specific exercises and take my Pregnacare tablets. I guarantee I would do neither if I wasn't reminded!  

On the other hand, something I didn't need reminding about was to take advantage of my Maternity Exemption Certificate (mat ex). The mat ex entitles you to free NHS prescriptions and some other care for the duration of your pregnancy and for a year after. I received this towards the end of my first trimester, then BAM practically booked up a full body MOT. 

‘Mummy’ and ‘Daddy’ at a Kensington Palace event this trimester

I was quite reflective in this second trimester, about myself, the women around me, and even women in our society as a whole. Key thoughts below:

From about week 16, I truly felt ‘pregnant’. Don't get me wrong, of course I had 3+ months worth of symptoms before that, but I now became so mindful that I'm literally carrying around a tiny human in my body. I was also way more aware that every single thing I do has an effect on this human, and I'm the only one directly responsible at this time. My partner (who became my fiance during this trimester, eeeeeeeeeee) has been absolutely incredible every single step of the way since we found out we were having this baby - literally doing the lion's share of everything but my day job lol, and even more to keep me as comfortable and happy as possible - but evolutionarily, it can only be the woman who bears 24/7 responsibility at this stage: every bit of air I breathe into my lungs, every item of food that passes my lips, every glass of water that I do or don't drink, every environment I expose my body to, is having an effect on two people, and I'm the only one responsible. This was a very deep thought to first have on the toilet, thinking “wait, I'm not alone in the loo”. 

I also gained a new understanding of actually, no matter how empathetic I felt I had been through friends’ pregnancies in the past, I never had full understanding of what they were going through in the way I do now. I would go as far as to say, you can't truly fully understand pregnancy (and birth) until you've experienced it yourself*. However, BIG asterisks, because I had some phenomenal support from a handful of friends/family without kids, who regularly checked in on how I was feeling, gave me the space to talk about this really huge experience I was going through, and even offered legal advice around pregnancy. I simply mean, there's just some aspects of pregnancy that can't be put into words (yes, even as a journalist); the words that do exist in the English language just aren't enough to fully convey what is trying to be explained. Women are bloody incredible. They really and truly are.

Which leads me onto nicely that this country isn't built to support growing families, so it's little wonder why birth rates have taken a nose dive. Amongst many other facts and figures I've consumed since becoming pregnant, a couple that have stood out to me is that it takes six weeks for the placental wound to heal after birth, and two years for women’s hormones to go back to what they were prior to pregnancy. This is no quick business, yet we judge women for not being put together and out and about sharing their baby with the world from the early on (and I myself am so guilty of judging others in the past for being off the radar and uncommunitive for months; I now realise how wrong this is). What’s more statutory maternity pay kicks in between 3-6 months aka we have to survive on less than half of minimum wage, or find our still healing bodies back at work; and women are expected back at work properly within absolute max a year. I'm thankfully in a position to be able to save hard while on a full salary, and if I need it, call on family support, so I can spend longer with my child than my monthly paycheck dictates, but I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t worried about money once my full salary stops. All this is to say yes, it's people’s choice to have children or not, but equally, the system is unfairly unsupportive of that choice. What's the alternative? Only the rich and elite have children, and then we live in a world of Torys forever?! No, thanks!

The top 5 things that helped me during my pregnancy as a first-time mum

Originally written just before the start of my third trimester - I will update this, and swap in and out if anything that changes in the final 12 or so weeks. If there is no update, well, then here is the list…

I have never been given as much information and advice about one topic until pregnancy. Everyone - and I mean everyone - has an anecdote to share, whether their own experience or of someone close to them; you like one pregnancy reel on IG, and it'll be all the algorithm serves you forever more; and between medical appointments, and family and friends, you'll get enough advice to last you a lifetime! Between all these sources, it can sometimes feel hella overwhelming, especially as often there is conflicting information depending on your sources or someone's personal experience. Just remember, bottom line, women have been giving birth for thousands of years - it's what our bodies evolutionally are made for. 

If you are reading this also pregnant, I'm not seeking to overload you with more information. These are simply the 5 things that had a significant impact on my experience of pregnancy as a first-time mum, and I highly recommend:

1. Positive Birth Book by Milli Hill

If you do one thing, and one thing only, to prepare for birth, make it reading the Positive Birth Book by Milli Hill. My fiance bought this book for me early on in my pregnancy, but I shelved it until the second trimester, quite frankly sh*t scared about the prospect of birth, and in the throws of miscarriage anxiety, I didn't want to jinx it by preparing for anything before 12 weeks. However, this book changed my whole mindset surrounding birth. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't like “yippee, this is going to be a pain-free experience”, but I felt far more empowered and knowledgeable, and no longer petrified about the prospect of birth after reading this book. It breaks down birth into the different stages, gives you the science behind what's happening to your body, provides good anecdotes from real women, and broadly covers natural birth, pain relief, c sections, water birth, and everything in between. You’ll have to await my blog about my birth experience to see if it helped me when the crunch came…

If you'd like to further your positive experience around this, enrol in a hypnobirthing course (as recommended to me by my step sister and a couple of friends), which shares a lot of this information and goes further with coping techniques, and tangible comparisons. I did two - an hour-long free session, and a paid-for longer online course by The Positive Birth Company - and, ladies, please pay. The first one I just couldn't get on board with and was far too hippy for me. However, the PBC one, while a lot of the same info was presented, it was far more science and holistic based, without the need for frivolities (or naming your bits human names).

2. Start4Life emails

These are run by the NHS, and sent directly to your inbox every new week (you put your due date in, which you can amend after your dating scan too, so it's literally catered to your baby’s new week - i.e. I received them each Wednesday). It breaks down the information you may need week by week as you progress further into your pregnancy - whether it be an article about sleeping on your side, reassurances about implantation bleeding, or your rights do flexible hours - rather than overloading information in one go that might not be relevant to you for months yet. It also keeps you updated on your baby's progress week to week too, from their size to their milestones they're hitting within the womb. 

3. Baby memory book 

I love to write my personal blog posts, be it about travel or pregnancy, as a way to look back on my experiences in years to come. I also am big on printing out photos at the end of each year and putting them in a physical album. This is an amalgamation of both. I got a baby book, one that covers weekly from nine weeks in utero to baby’s first birthday, as one of my first purchases, and relished in filling it out with scan photos or relevant photos (like baby’s first Christmas gifts - from my mum and brother, even though baby was still in the womb lol), anything exciting in baby’s development that I felt, or anything notable that ‘Mummy and Daddy’ did that week. I didn't fill it out every single week if nothing remarkable happened, but it'll be something we can both treasure for years to come. I used to love looking at mine and my brothers’ baby albums when we were little.

4. Prenatal vitamins 

From the moment you find out you're pregnant (or even before if you're preparing to get pregnant), find yourself in Boots or Superdrug and get yourself some folic acid and vitamin D supplements. These are essential for baby’s development in the first trimester. After a few weeks, I relied on daily Pregnacare tablets - which include these two vitamins and so many more - though there are other brands too. I also joked that these little pills would turn all my McDonalds chicken nuggets into a healthy, well-sized, kicking baby haha. Don't get me wrong, I've also eaten the most fruit and veg in these last months compared to any other period in my adult life; however, I've not been stingy with the treats either. Eating for two is a myth, but it's also an easy way to justify treating yourself. These prenatal vitamins mean I've been getting the nutrients I, and baby, need.

5. Family and friends support 

Okay, I know I said at the beginning that other people's voices can be overwhelming, but the right voices, or simply only hearing them when you've sought support or advice, has made the world of difference. 

While pregnant, I relied on my mum to answer a lot of my questions around baby’s in utero milestones and about birth as, not only had she birthed me and my two brothers, but she was a trained midwife while I was growing up. I also have a handful of friends who either had given birth in the last 10 years or actually were pregnant at the same time as me, just a few months ahead, who I spoke regularly with and were able to provide relevant, real-world information away from me just reading something in a book. Also, between them and family, provided a lot of helpful hand-me-downs - having a baby is expensive!

Also, there was an even smaller group of friends and family members who, despite not having children of their own, just let me know they were there: checking in on how I was feeling regularly, and giving me the space to talk about this really huge experience I was going through. Within this group I had someone who knew employment law around pregnancy inside out, and I even had a colleague who, if I made so much as a sigh or I indicated I was uncomfortable in any way, would check whether I needed anything to ensure I was more comfortable. 

Everyone has their own shiz going on, and while this pregnancy may be the centre of your world, it isn't the centre of everyone else's - however you'll fast become aware of who is invested and cares about yours and baby's wellbeing, and who is just all about ‘cuddles with the baby’ once born. It can be a hard pill to swallow, but it means that it is far easier to set boundaries going forwards with those people.

Christmas gifts received from family while in utero

Of course, there are plenty more things I could add to this list, from my pregnancy pillow to the Pregnancy+ app, Nugget Savings IG account to actually chatting to your midwives at appts, but in all honesty, there is just so much info and assistance out there these days in the UK, if you think you need something, it probably already exists.

Do what's right for you - at the end of the day, this is something going on with your body and your child, no matter how educated someone is on a topic, or what a book says. Follow your instinct. Oh, and don't rely on Google.

A pregnant woman's honest rankings of some non-alcoholic alternative drinks

While I'm not an every night drinker, I do love my margaritas, and rum and cokes. My job also affords me experiences where alcohol is often at the forefront, or a significant part, and as such, it has just become part of my lifestyle without a second thought. However, my sober journey started the day after I found out I was pregnant, so it was time to find some non-alcoholic alternatives. 

I'll be totally transparent, while I found sobriety really easy at first - and saw great results in my skin and weight from the reduction of alcohol - ironically, it was during ‘Dry January’ that I did start to find it a little more difficult, and had a regular hankering for a rum and coke. However, prioritising my baby’s health kept my resolve strong.

At the beginning of the pregnancy, my go-to non-alcoholic drinks were juices or fizzy drinks, but this started to get old - and super sugary - quite quickly. As such, I explored many of the non-alcoholic alternatives on the market, and rated them out of five as below:

Mocktail at Moonshine Saloon

1. Gordon's Pink Gin - 0% [5/10]

General taste

4

Replica of the real thing  

1

Comments

The is a seemingly large discrepancy in my two ratings, because in my opinion, it doesn't taste like gin at all. However, it still make a lovely, fruity addition to soda water that I’d happily drink on the regular.

2. Noughtie white wine [6/10]

General taste

2

Replica of the real thing

Comments

In all honesty, it tastes like a cheap bottle of white wine - university days vibes. The taste does improve with a splash of lemonade though: spritzer time!

3. Clean Co Tequila [6/10]

General taste

3

Replica of the real thing

Comments

I found this a bit too sweet to be likened to a tequila - perhaps a smoky mezcal would be more appropriate - however it was still nice. Now, when I added to some margarita mix and squeezed in a decent amount of lime, it brought it right up to the full 5! The sharpness, which is what’s achieved with the lime in the marg, is what’s missing.

4. Non #1 [6/10]

General taste

3  

Replica of the real thing

3 (though it’s worth noting that Non strives to be ‘wine adjacent’, not a replica wine) 

Comments

I enjoyed this. It was tart and fruity, and felt like an elevated mocktail, with more ‘wine’ tones. 

5. Non #3 [7/10]

General taste

4

Replica of the real thing

3 (though it’s worth noting that Non strives to be ‘wine adjacent’, not a replica wine) 

Comments

If you're out for dinner, this is the perfect accompaniment to fish dishes. No joke, I feel it matched the fish I ate more than a real white wine would have done. 

6. Savyll Mojito [8/10]

General taste 

4

Replica of the real thing

4

Comments

On its own, it tasted like a mojito; however, adding real mint and sugar is what is needed to take this up to a full 5 marks.

7. Captain Morgan's Spiced 0.0% [9/10]

General taste

5   

Replica of the real thing

4 (though the smell is a 5, when it comes to replicating a real spiced rum)

Comments

Almost full marks! This is a very decent replica; it's only missing the edge of flavour that alcohol brings. I would happily shot it, as it has all the spiced rum flavours without that harshness, and when mixed with coke, it genuinely tastes like I’m just drinking a weak rum and coke.

This piece will be further updated as I try more alternatives…

The realities of the first trimester: one person’s account

When I started this blog in my early 20s, it was a way to combine two of my loves: writing and travel. Along the way, it's become my way of recording smaller details of trips and life stages that I may otherwise struggle to recall. As 20s have turned into 30s, the love of travel - and the travel blogs - are still there, but now other types of adventures fill my words too. These blogs are just as much as to entertain and inform others, as they are a diary to me, so I can look back and reflect. 

“First trimester is ghetto” is a phrase I'd seen in comments under multiple IG reels. I had many preconceived ideas about the first trimester of pregnancy before this pregnancy, informed by family and friends’ experiences, the media, social media, what we learnt at school (which I've come to realise some of which is now out of date… science, eh). However, my own experience has challenged many of my beliefs and made me realise just how unique and varied pregnancy is. 

On the final night of my first trimester

Morning sickness - what’s the vibe?

As is the title of this blog post, this is just my account. Everyone is different - and feeling one way or another is not an indication of anything, so don't do what I did, and read too much into it in the early stages. I had built up an expectation of what morning sickness was, expecting my head to be hanging into the toilet bowl for around two months straight. When this wasn't the case for me, and on occasion, I went a day or two with no nausea whatsoever, my mind would go into overdrive, overthinking what it could mean - right now, having passed the first trimester, I can say it didn't mean a darn thing. 

Don't get me wrong, I did have nausea nearly everyday throughout the trimester - and it really went up a gear on certain weeks - but rather than feeling constantly, horrendously sick day in, day out, it was mostly manageable. I had certain triggers, like brushing my teeth or strong smells, that made it worse, but otherwise, I was able to manage it with peppermint (Polos were my constant companion), a little water, or perhaps counterintuitive, but eating something.  

Mental health 

Something I did struggle with, particularly in the first half of my first trimester, was miscarriage anxiety. For personal reasons and because of statistics so widely publicised everywhere, I would say it crippled my enjoyment in the early weeks; while my partner, our parents, and our close friends were jumping for joy, I would not allow myself to imagine my life in the next year, or the joy of holding my child, lest it didn't work out that way. I was telling myself it was self preservation and I was preparing myself for all outcomes, but was I allowing myself to even consider the good outcomes? No, I wasn't. 

Having spotting around week 7 really sent me into a tailspin. I had to work that day - I hadn't told work I was pregnant as yet, of course - and frankly couldn't care less about a social media post that hadn't gone out, or what Londoners should do on the weekend ahead, as I worried I was miscarrying my baby. But still I had to present my professionally and be readily available to my colleagues and campaigns - though I counted my lucky stars I always work from home on a Monday. Just two days later, I had a pre-booked EPU scan, which confirmed what my mum and partner (and even the dreaded Google) had tried to reassure me: baby was absolutely fine. We even saw his/her heart beat for the first time!!! It's always best to consult the EPU about blood in pregnancy, but try not to let your idea of the worst consume you, until you have all the facts. Blood doesn't always equal miscarriage, despite what we learnt at school. This was a real turning point for me, and despite any twinges my body experienced, I felt far more positive from this point onwards. 

I also am very lucky to have a supportive partner and father of my child to be; his approach is far less anxiety driven than mine, yet he’s given me the mental space to approach this in my own way as a first-time mother. Also, he’s definitely over indulged my "baby wants X, baby wants Y” requests… I don’t think baby actually knows what mussels or tea are, haha.

Exhaustion

Omg. This is what I struggled with the most in my first trimester, and no one warned me?! Yet, mentioning it to every mum and mum to be in my life, they responded with an “oh yeah, there is nothing like pregnancy exhaustion”. Erm, thanks for the heads up!

I guess it makes sense: your body is not only adapting to a new experience, but it is growing literal organs and body parts, so of course, it'll take it out of you. Despite leading a very hectic life throughout my 20s - full-time job, multiple side hustles, full social life - I’d never felt tiredness like this before. The exhaustion hit me HARD. I've never been a daytime napper, unless I'm really ill or really hungover lol, but I needed to lie down often.

Despite what stereotypes would have us all think, I actually work much harder at home than when I'm in the office - office is somewhat of a social visit, now we’re not in five days a week, right?! I really did struggle with the exhaustion during the workday, but I was determined not to let my work slip. As for office days, well, we all get that 4pm slump, right? Little did my colleagues know just how hard it was hitting me! Between that and vacantly staring into space, they probably thought I was coming up with witty puns for my campaigns, not just trying to keep my eyes open…

And what else? 

Pregnancy is one of those things that so many women go through, but still some things are unknown about it by doctors and scientists -  wild. I had various other symptoms that when I chatted to professionals or Googled (even though I shouldn't) were attributed to pregnancy, but with no rhyme or reason why. 

Halfway through my first trimester I caught a cold - the one that was truly wiping people out.  Apparently pregnant women have a lower immune system, but boy, I was bed bound for two and a half days, so I did NOT want to get that again. I was very careful about keeping my distance from people in public where possible after that, and did get a few sniffles, but Vicks-ed those feet up (Google it - old wives tale that works, promise!) 

General aches and pains are also just part of this new stage of life. From weeks 5-6, and 9, I had what felt like mild period cramps; this can be very normal during pregnancy as remember, the uterus is growing and expanding. Pains in other parts of your body (hello, boobs, hello, back) are also super normal too.

The 12-week ‘safe zone’

Back to the original point of ‘first trimester is ghetto’. While I obviously understand the reason why waiting 12 weeks to tell people is the done thing, I'd argue that the huge transition from not pregnant to pregnant is when you need support the most (well, until what happens at the other end of pregnancy, haha). It's a time where you're questioning this body you've lived in your whole life for every little thing - in fact, someone else is living in it with you! While I don't regret not telling the majority of work until after 12 weeks, equally, I really could have done with the professional support earlier on too, while my body and brain were going through something so radical. I did struggle at work some days, and yet I had to smile and pretend everything was normal, and still operate at the same high level I'd maintained for my career thus far. 

However, we threw out this 12-week rule for close family and friends, and it was the best decision. Don't underestimate the power of support. Sharing in joy is uplifting, and frankly, if the worst does happen, wouldn’t you want to go through that with support too? Although I already knew I have the best people around me, some of my family and friends still surprised me with just how thoughtful their actions and words were, and the regularity of check-ins. I also realised the breadth of support you need: you don't always just need to hear ‘this symptom is normal’, sometimes you need to hear ‘these are your legal rights now you're pregnant, so do this, this and this’. 

Medical appointments 

Speaking of practical advice, something that surprised me is the frequency of medical appointments in the first trimester. You basically do not exist to the NHS as a pregnant woman until 9 or so weeks (unless you have some problems/complications and visit the EPU before that time). I was shocked when telling my GP about my pregnancy that they basically leave you vibing out here with nothing until a good two and a bit months in. Also, the minimal amount of ultrasounds throughout the pregnancy also baffled me (don't get me started on the fact that you have to pay a nominal fee for the printed ultrasound pics, if not from an EPU visit!). This country and its budgets, eh, hahaha. I know it’s all relative due to the stage of pregnancy, but as a first-time mother, I was very glad to have my own mum - who is also an ex-midwife - as well as mum friends around to reassure me during this time.

While I'm SO excited to meet my child, I do also not wish away this time either, nor this experience. Let's see what I'll learn in this second trimester…